December 25th, 2002

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Bob and I are going over to Ricky and Tommy's for dinner today. It's where we've spent the last three Christmases. It will be small, cozy and great food. Bob loves it cause he can troll for dropped food.

I wish you all a very wonderful Christmas. I want to thank you all for listening to me over the last four months. The ability to write things down and get back amazing support has meant a great deal to me. Thank you.
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Another thought...

As I tried to drift off last night, it occured to me after seeing the video tape of our last Christmas, I not only missed Billy but I missed myself. On that tape, I saw a guy who didn't have any other cares in the world except for the mundane, day-to-day nonsense that we all get wrapped up in. But I was happy. Really happy. It was like looking at a completely different person on screen. I miss me being happy. I miss me being me.
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