November 13th, 2002

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Last night and so far today...

My group session last night was especially difficult as one of our members is having a very bad crisis. We all are in the shit but hers was exceptionally terrible. So the good news about going to group is the emotional shorthand we all have and the unabashed ability to express our sorrow. The bad news, because we have all grown to love one another since we started in March, is that you take on other's sadness.

On the way home, i called a friend and we ended up talking for like an hour and a half. He's going through a lot of shit too and it was good to hear about someone else's stuff rather than listening to my own. I hope I was able to help him out a little by listening : )

Today is filled with two business meetings...one lunch and one dinner. Good arm workout at the gym today then some cardio. Someone at group last night said I looked great and looked like I lost some weight. I wanted to kill her. The point is to GAIN weight. I just gotta eat more : ) The problem is after going through such a rapid weight loss, my stomach is not prepared to take in what I want.

Off to lunch meeting.........
  • Current Music
    Dr. Laura
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Good lunch

Met with Jon at the Firehouse and we designed the radio show he is going to do. He is an exceptionally talented and funny radio guy who owes a creative debt to Phil Hendrie but still has his own voice. The show is going to be great. We are doing it next Tuesday and will get it out to syndicators ASAP. Now if my dinner meeting goes this well, I will sleep happily tonight : )

I had a tuna melt on rye with double fries.
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    John and Ken - KFI
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Sticking my neck out

It's been quite a while since I've had sex (not counting compulsive masturbation and two encounters with women). It may be a long time before I have it again with a man. Not that they're beating down my door but that is tricky territory for me. But I thought I'd take this test to find out where I'm at about the whole subject. Toe in water. Brrrrrr. The water's cold : )

I realize this is the fourth or fifth post TODAY on LJ. This shit is addictive. Scroll past all my stuff if you're sick of me by now.


* Gay/Straight or Bi?
GAY...SOMETIMES BI : )
* Top/Bottom/Versatile?
THE TOP/BOTTOM QUESTION SEEMS OLD FASHIONED. I CAN SAY I AM MORE COMFORTABLE BEING DOMINENT BUT NEVER HAVE REALLY FIGURED OUT THE RULES FOR TOP/BOTTOM.
* Do you prefer giving or receiving oral sex?
TO QUOTE BUDDY COLE: "EVERYONE LOVES PLAYING THE FLUTE."
* Are you into bondage?
YEAH THAT CAN BE FUN. AGAIN ON THE DOMINENT END OF IT.
* Are you into leather?
I HAVE A TON OF LEATHER (CHAPS, PANTS, SHIRT, MANY JACKETS). I JUST DON'T WEAR IT ANYMORE.
* Kink?
YEAH WAY KINKY SOMETIMES.
* If you had to describe what you were [aka. bear, cub, twink et c.].
AW SHIT ANOTHER LABEL I CAN'T FIGURE OUT. HOW ABOUT JUST A REGULAR GUY?
* Do you spit? swallow? or neither?
DEPENDS ON THE PERSON. NOT A RISK-TAKER WHEN IT COMES TO SEX SO.....I GOTTA KNOW THE PERSON.
* Favorite position?
WHATEVER MY PARTNER RESPONDS TO THE BEST.
* Have any fantasies you want to confess?
NOT ON HERE
* Who would be your ultimate "fuck"?
GARTH BROOKS
* Have you ever been in an orgy?
YES BOTH STRAIGHT AND GAY ORGIES...VERY DIFFERENT DYNAMICS BUT BOTH ARE STILL FUN.
* How about a 3way?
YES
* Do you use/enjoy sex toys?
IF MY PARTNER WANTED TO USE ONE, SURE. BUT NOT SOMETHING I SEEK OUT.
* What livejournal person[s] would you like to molest someday?
NOT ANSWERING THIS ONE
* Friends on your LJ list you've messed around with?
NONE ALTHOUGH ONE HAS SEEN ME PARTIALLY NAKED ONCE : )
* Place you fantasize about having sex?
MY MIND
* Favorite Lube?
PRE AND SPIT
* Most unusual place you've ever had sex?
AMERICAN AIRLINES

Random Questions:
* Favorite color?
BLUE
* Favorite Underwear type:
USUALLY BOXERS ALTHOUGH SOMETIMES I LIKE TO BE HUGGED : )
* Favorite sport?
BASEBALL
* Do you play sports?
NOT CURRENTLY...
* If so what sport?
USED TO PLAY BASEBALL/SOFTBALL BUT IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME
* In your opinion, what is the best album you've heard this year?
THE RISING & THE EMINEM SHOW
* Movie you've seen recently you enjoyed?
PUNCH DRUNK LOVE
* What kind of car do you drive?
EXPLORER
* What kind of car do you want?
A NEW EXPLORER
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