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Events going backwards
“God! Look at how big his cock is!” Mickey pointed toward Eddie, the stray that wandered into my yard while Stephen and I were sitting on the porch Friday night. She was right, of course. Nothing on Eddie was in proportion—he seems to be the product of one wild night a few years ago between a German Shepherd and a Corgi. His ears, head, tail, and penis are full-scaled shepherd while the rest of his small squat long body is decidedly Corgigated.

I’d just returned from an eleven-day trip to Montreal and DC, from a comedy festival to some serious business at my company’s mothership. Both legs of the trip were magnificent; I got shit-faced on Canadian beer and pot in Montreal with old friends and the comic known for his crew cut and glasses, and in DC (or Silver Spring, Maryland, to be specific), I had a fantastic time with Joe in between the work part. Joe looked better than I've ever seen him, and I don't just mean because he's lost over fifty pounds, although he looks amazingly handsome. No, it's not simply the weight. Joe looks happy.

Exhausted and wired and sitting on the front porch smoking a cigarette, I watched this dirty little dog roam by, stopping long enough to engage Stephen in some fence-sniffing, and before I could tell myself No! You can’t have another dog!, this weirdly-shaped creature was in the yard, in my arms, and finally, in the house. I decided to take him to the ASPCA the next day, but they told me they’d euthanize him. When I said that was not an option for me (or him), they sent me to a vet who’d give him a check-up and neuter him. Eddie and me waited two hours in the vet’s lobby, him sitting on my lap while I gently stroked his ridiculously large ears.

I left him there for blood work, and met Mickey at the movies where we stared blankly at the murky Miami Vice waiting for something exciting to happen. It never did. We picked up Eddie (a random name I chose when we first met on Friday night), and he was wiggling himself stupid when he saw me. That’s when Mickey noticed his endowment yelling her statement in front of the shaken, and now suspicious, vet workers.

Unlike Amy, Eddie is here to stay, and it’s almost official: I’m becoming a crazy old man in a crazy old house collecting stray dogs.

* * * *

I really wanted to attend moroccomole’s initial screening of his film series based on his deservedly best-selling movie romp 101 Must-See Movies For Gay Men . The midnight series kicked off with Cruising, a nonsensical piece of work that I love for two reasons.

First, two months into my agent trainee job at ICM, the infancy of my career, I worked in the mailroom xeroxing screenplays. The movie was shooting in New York at the time while the Gay Task Force staged protests that threatened to disrupt the filming. The studio refused to release the script to them, which only fueled their suspicions that this was an inflammatory depiction of gay life. As a young gay, I dutifully copied the screenplay and sent it to them anonymously. A few days later, reports came that they’d received the script and were even more outraged. The protests continued until the film wrapped. It was perhaps my only stab at activism.

Second, this was the first film where gay men were actually allowed to be masculine, and they looked like the men in my life. Ah, the salad days before Carson Kressley and Just Jack.

Yeah, I really wanted to see the film, hang out with my Tuesday TV Night crew, but after eleven days on the road, an eight-hour travel day, and meeting Eddie, that didn’t happen.

* * * *

About three weeks ago, I attended a screening of Meth, a documentary on the ravages of the planet’s most devastating drug, at Outfest, LA’s gay and lesbian film festival. I went alone, sat in the back, and cried through most of it. If only I’d known then

* * * *

Billy’s brother Bub complained of chest pains to his wife Karen, and she rushed him to the hospital. He’s healing nicely after his angioplasty. Billy’s sister Debbie complained of chest pains the following week to her roommate, someone she doesn’t even really like, and now she’s recuperating at home after her surgery. Dixie, Billy’s oldest sister, just celebrated her first anniversary since her heart surgery.

While I’m obviously very happy for all three of them, It makes me crumble to my knees that Billy, the youngest in the family, was the example, and the people around his siblings learned a horrifyingly simple lesson that seemed to have escaped me.

* * * *

I’ve tried to write over the past month or six weeks or whenever the hell I posted last, and a very painful refinancing of my house or Big Brother or So You Think You Can Dance swept away any concentration I may’ve had, and my words collected on the floor. I haven’t logged onto LJ in a long time, and I really miss it. I really miss you.

I’m back, I think.

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dithering From: dithering Date: July 30th, 2006 10:12 pm (UTC) (Link)
I was just thinking about you earlier today, wondering if you were okay. I'm glad you're back. :)

raptusanxieux From: raptusanxieux Date: July 31st, 2006 01:31 am (UTC) (Link)
That's so freaky, I was thinking about him too!

Eddie is so cool!
shawnsyms From: shawnsyms Date: July 30th, 2006 10:27 pm (UTC) (Link)
From: tequilaprophet Date: July 30th, 2006 10:58 pm (UTC) (Link)
It's good to hear from you.

I wish I could adopt whatever animal wandered before my path. I have to force myself not to walk by the cat shelter down the street from my house.
edenic From: edenic Date: July 30th, 2006 11:10 pm (UTC) (Link)
I've missed you too.
michaelkeane From: michaelkeane Date: July 30th, 2006 11:20 pm (UTC) (Link)
Welcome back. You've been sorely missed.
poohbearjim From: poohbearjim Date: July 30th, 2006 11:26 pm (UTC) (Link)
Eddie looks adorable. You're lucky he picked you to be his slave. :)
guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: July 31st, 2006 01:48 am (UTC) (Link)
He's already started, the damned top, forcing me to give him a bath today with "kiwi rainforest" shampoo. Now he smells like a garden of earthly fucking delights.
katryxx From: katryxx Date: July 30th, 2006 11:50 pm (UTC) (Link)
Congrats on your new family member! Your description of the night of passion looks entirely accurate, and doubles as hilarious.

I've missed you too. I still don't write as much as I used to, but I still read every little thing, and I look forward to the peeks into your life again. :)
ubermunkey From: ubermunkey Date: July 31st, 2006 12:00 am (UTC) (Link)
Welcome back T.

Crazy old man who collects dogs. It has a nice ring to it. lol

be well
cricketshay From: cricketshay Date: July 31st, 2006 12:22 am (UTC) (Link)
I've missed you too. I got swept into So You Think You Can Dance. After Dmitry was cut, I cried like a baby. I missed this past weeks elimination show, but when my cuz told me Allison was out, I freaked. Oh and Natalie reminds me of Briteny Murphey.
guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: July 31st, 2006 02:00 am (UTC) (Link)
I'm obsessed with that show. It totally makes me sit on the edge of my seat and cry, and then I feel ilke a big wet homo. I love it!

Dimitri should've stayed and Ivan or Ryan should've gone. That was totally shocking.

How much did you love the Travis dance with the park bench?

And hands down, Donyelle is the hottest girl on television (well, next to Janelle of BB). I hope she wins, even though I like Heidi and Benji.
brianrdu From: brianrdu Date: July 31st, 2006 12:59 am (UTC) (Link)
To think I thought it was lesbians that collected the dogs. I just have my one and only. Until I make the mistake of going to the shelter again, just to pet the dogs.

Anyhow, it's nice to see you back. I think about you now and again, hoping you are happier out there in your element.
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guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: July 31st, 2006 10:27 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thanks, K.! I hope you're doing well, too. I have to catch up on your journal.
creactivity From: creactivity Date: July 31st, 2006 01:39 am (UTC) (Link)
You know you learned the lesson and it cost you all dearly.

I miss you. My new job is figuring out how we can spend some time together soon.
mattycub From: mattycub Date: July 31st, 2006 01:53 am (UTC) (Link)
I've missed you buddy...both here and out in the real world.

Friday's screening of Cruising was my first viewing. I thought it was a seriously flawed, almost ridiculous movie...and I loved it. I don't know if I would have liked to have it seen it as a young'n. On the one hand, I think I would have found its depiciton of gay life too intimidating and freaky. On the other hand, the men....oh, the men. If I had known hot, masculine gay men like that existed, perhaps I would have been able to propel myself out of the closet a bit earlier.
guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: July 31st, 2006 10:28 pm (UTC) (Link)
Does the ending still make absolutely no sense? Let's discuss!
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guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: July 31st, 2006 02:40 am (UTC) (Link)
Plug it up! Plug it up! Plug it up!
hapgood From: hapgood Date: July 31st, 2006 02:37 am (UTC) (Link)
welcome back. This is what I love about LJ, you can take moments away and come back, and everything is still connected by its little threads. This web has missed you.
guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: July 31st, 2006 10:29 pm (UTC) (Link)
LJ is the most stable relationship I've had in years. Crazy, isn't it?
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