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If I should fall behind, Guyster, wait for me.
Marking my territory
I examined my face in the mirror of the medicine cabinet that’s above the sink. My nozzle was dangling into the white porcelain with its steady stream circling down the drain, and I couldn’t take my eyes away from my face. The crease above my nose that points to my forehead looked deeper, a gully that suggested an expression of constant concern. The brown spot on the right side of my nose was worrisome, and ugly. I ignored the gash on the left side of my head; I knew it came from this morning’s rushed and angry self-buzzing. It was my face, though, and I stared at as if I’d never seen it before.

I shook myself off and zipped up my shorts. By habit, I ran the water hard enough to clear the residual urine. I sat in the green leather chair, its worn cushion hidden by a University of Texas blanket that a friend once gave to me, and looked around the backhouse, the Sedlak house . I looked back into the all-tiled bathroom with its glass ceiling, at the industrial barrel used for the sink and urinal, and I thought that this was one of two of my favorite places I’ve ever peed.

My other favorite place is downstairs in the tiny bathroom that sits in the middle of the Craftsmen cottage built in 1923. Above that toilet is an original built-in wooden cabinet that has glass-paned doors. I’ll rest my right arm on that cabinet like a drunk steadying himself, and it is the perfect place to piss. There’s no mirror to mock you and no relentless sunshine streaming from above to accentuate every facial flaw you haven’t noticed yet. There’s nothing to look at but Billy’s souvenir village-in-a-bottle that he brought back from the Philippines while in the Navy, some carefully folded towels, and our collected toiletries.

I’m about to do something big. In a few days, I’ll make a purchase larger than anything I’d ever imagined outside of lottery daydreams. I’ve never taken a bigger risk, but I’ve never wanted something this much, at least among the things that I want that remains in the realm of possibility. I’m about to take out a loan well into the seven figures, and finally this property will be mine (ours).

Within architectural circles, this will always be referred to as the Sedlak house, but it will be my home for good, and without a doubt, that crevice that’s creeping up my forehead will become a little bit deeper.


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quuf From: quuf Date: October 15th, 2005 11:53 pm (UTC) (Link)
Atta boy.
cricketshay From: cricketshay Date: October 15th, 2005 11:55 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm glad you got the house. I know it's scary but you will be fine. *hugs*

calamityjake From: calamityjake Date: October 15th, 2005 11:58 pm (UTC) (Link)
Congrats. It looks great.
nancec From: nancec Date: October 16th, 2005 12:17 am (UTC) (Link)
Yes! I was hoping for good news on this for you. I know you're worried but you have to be somewhat relieved too, knowing that place will be yours and Billy's in both spirit *and* fact now. I'm so happy for you!
clintswan From: clintswan Date: October 16th, 2005 12:54 am (UTC) (Link)

onward and upward!
From: les_voyages Date: October 16th, 2005 12:56 am (UTC) (Link)

Add this journal and remove my other one. (Unless you speak French, then keep the other one)
guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: October 16th, 2005 02:05 am (UTC) (Link)
From: paulintoronto Date: October 16th, 2005 01:13 am (UTC) (Link)
Congratulations. It's nice to read that things came together the way they needed to for you to get the house.
ladycakes From: ladycakes Date: October 16th, 2005 01:29 am (UTC) (Link)
This house is yours you should won it. I'm so happy for you, sweets.
twillhead From: twillhead Date: October 16th, 2005 01:30 am (UTC) (Link)
Go for it. And thanks.
From: teelo Date: October 16th, 2005 01:34 am (UTC) (Link)
Buying a house in SoCal is scary. We didn't have to go with a 7 figure loan, but the number was still more than I ever imagined I'd pay for a place to live.
Here is the thing though: If you have done the math, and you think you can make it, go for it. After a while the payments become a habit and instead of freaking out about the price you will be enjoying your new (or in this case old) home.
Good luck! And don't forget the property taxes.
wordweaverlynn From: wordweaverlynn Date: October 16th, 2005 02:03 am (UTC) (Link)
The house looks fabulous. May you live there in peace and prosperity.
From: ex_hotlavamo352 Date: October 16th, 2005 02:30 am (UTC) (Link)
Oh, Dad.
raptusanxieux From: raptusanxieux Date: October 16th, 2005 03:11 am (UTC) (Link)
PSYCHED for you that you're getting the house! May you have many happy pisses in your home!
renniekins From: renniekins Date: October 16th, 2005 03:16 am (UTC) (Link)
I'm so glad you're buying it...I know it's important to you.
dithering From: dithering Date: October 16th, 2005 11:24 am (UTC) (Link)
I'm so glad you get to buy it!!!
kishenehn From: kishenehn Date: October 16th, 2005 01:18 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm very happy for you, Terry.

brianrdu From: brianrdu Date: October 16th, 2005 01:48 pm (UTC) (Link)
Well, congratulations. And whatsamatta with the toilet, yo.

Hopefully, Bushco won't be able to get their removal of mortgage deductions for loans over 313,000.00 passed. God, this makes my little 115,000.00 house sound like a shack.
gotu From: gotu Date: October 16th, 2005 02:51 pm (UTC) (Link)
To butcher a famous line:

Home is the place that when you have to go there, they have to let you wee wee.
katryxx From: katryxx Date: October 16th, 2005 03:02 pm (UTC) (Link)
Congratulations. It will be an amazing thing to be home.
From: umkinda Date: October 16th, 2005 03:28 pm (UTC) (Link)
It's called success, baby. And it smells delicious.
discreet_chaos From: discreet_chaos Date: October 16th, 2005 03:49 pm (UTC) (Link)
...that crevice that’s creeping up my forehead will become a little bit deeper

No one has said it yet, so I'm going to agree by suggesting "without a doubt...".
Good luck my friend, I'm happy you could find a way.
creactivity From: creactivity Date: October 16th, 2005 05:46 pm (UTC) (Link)
savoresgirl From: savoresgirl Date: October 18th, 2005 05:16 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh THANK GOD!!!!! :-) Things are looking up for you Terry!! :) Good things really DO happen to good people!! You brought a very well needed smile to my face! I'm so happy for you!!! *HUGS*
lostcosmonaut From: lostcosmonaut Date: October 24th, 2005 09:29 pm (UTC) (Link)

village where i m from in a bottle

hey, zomeone nice told me I should invite you? 2B MERCILESSLY JUDGED?


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