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Tuesday night
Traffic was sparse on the 405 during rush hour last Tuesday, a sure sign in Los Angeles that it must be a Jewish holiday. I made a note while I was passing the Getty Museum up on the hill to my left that this would be my first trip into the land of 818 since my return to Los Angeles, and my stomach clenched; not from petty snobbery or fear of the Valley, but rather the anxiety I always feel when I’m about to step into a room full of virtual strangers.

Every Tuesday night, a group of men as dedicated to watching television as I am, converges on Dave and Jason’s swanky condo for an evening of food and flickering images. I’d met Dave a few times before, have been reading his journal for a few years, and I also knew that Sean would be there. Sean’s been a friend for a while, too. It was everyone else, the ones I didn’t know, that made me flinch before I rang their doorbell.

The second I walked in, though, I was instantly at ease. Everyone was warm, and welcoming. Jason was in the kitchen, making something that smelled delicious, and I grabbed my caffeine-free Diet Coke and plopped down on the couch. Soon the room filled with men, each one bearing a bag of food or soft drinks, and we went through Dave and Jason’s TiVo menu, watching Arrested Development before we tried to make it through The Night Stalker, and then dinner was served.

Being the new one in the room, the house rules were that I would be first in line, and I heaped on the food, took my seat, and waited for everyone to settle before the big event, America’s Next Top Model. Watching this show, arguably one of the best reality shows ever, with these guys was almost a contact sport, if smartass talk was physical. When I used to watch the show with fabulist, I’d robotically say, “You’re on your way to becoming America’s next top model,” along with Tyra, a phrase she uses up to fifteen times per episode. Joe would roll his eyes and laugh, which only encouraged me to continue the practice.

On Tuesday night, I found myself in a room full of men who, in unison, repeated the same phrase as if it were the Pledge of Allegiance. I smiled, imagining Joe’s response, and happily chanted right along with the group. I felt at gay home. I long ago gave up my gay card having thought that it’d been punched one too many times, and I retreated from gay men as if I weren’t one of them. I checked out long before Billy left, and since January 21, 2002, I’ve hunkered down to the point of barely acknowledging any sexuality beyond attending the infrequent bukakke party or gangbang . It just seems easier, sometimes.

Thank you e_ticket and zombietruckstop for encouraging me to come over, and thanks to fidgetcub for a fantastic meal. I apologize, moroccomole, on behalf of a friend of mine for his misplaced bad behavior, and it was great to finally meet you, uncle_james. It was also great meeting djmrswhite, possibly the best DJ in town, at least from what I’ve seen of his playlists. I really dug meeting teelo and it was great seeing bobaloo, who'd I only met once a few years ago at a midnight screening of The Apple. There were so many other super great guys there whose names I’ve forgotten, but I hope to see you all again soon, and most of all, thanks for letting me feel gay again.
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brigid23 From: brigid23 Date: October 9th, 2005 10:50 pm (UTC) (Link)
It's good to know there are others who properly appreciate America's Next Top Model. It's been my dirty little secret since it first aired.
guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: October 9th, 2005 11:25 pm (UTC) (Link)
It's narcotic, or like a potato chip. Choose your metaphor.
From: bobaloo Date: October 9th, 2005 11:15 pm (UTC) (Link)
You can gay it up with me and Paul any time, cutie!

Thanks for the hot bukakke story too!
guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: October 9th, 2005 11:38 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thanks, and yeah, the bukakke story is definitely more fun to read than the gangbang.
mengus From: mengus Date: October 9th, 2005 11:15 pm (UTC) (Link)
Is that on at the same time as Monday Night Football?

guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: October 9th, 2005 11:22 pm (UTC) (Link)
No. They'd never counter-program two gay shows.
mattycub From: mattycub Date: October 9th, 2005 11:22 pm (UTC) (Link)
I can't wait to join you for one of those Tuesday night gatherings.
guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: October 9th, 2005 11:24 pm (UTC) (Link)
There's someone else who can't wait for that, too.
zombietruckstop From: zombietruckstop Date: October 9th, 2005 11:37 pm (UTC) (Link)
Hooray for gay!

Now that we've brought you into our little gathering, you need to bring all of us to a gangbang or bukkake party. It's only fair...
fabulist From: fabulist Date: October 9th, 2005 11:54 pm (UTC) (Link)
You'll probably have better luck getting to go to one than I did.
poohbearjim From: poohbearjim Date: October 9th, 2005 11:43 pm (UTC) (Link)
Did you meet Ray? That's my hubby, profkampf.
guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: October 10th, 2005 12:24 am (UTC) (Link)
I don't know! Did he mention meeting someone without facial hair from Tuesday night?
From: danman869 Date: October 9th, 2005 11:44 pm (UTC) (Link)
It's great being able to connect like that with other guys. It's what makes me look forward to the bi-weekly game nights Dennis and I go to. Glad you got to connect with all those guys.

Welcome back to LA, btw.
stutts From: stutts Date: October 9th, 2005 11:50 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh shit, I forgot how killer that gangbang entry was.
stutts From: stutts Date: October 10th, 2005 12:02 am (UTC) (Link)
Er, I mean, the bukkake entry. I just the gangbang one for the first time and it was a downer.
djmrswhite From: djmrswhite Date: October 10th, 2005 12:09 am (UTC) (Link)
you'll need pancakes soon then...
From: tequilaprophet Date: October 10th, 2005 04:52 am (UTC) (Link)
Friends are indeed a good thing...
cricketshay From: cricketshay Date: October 10th, 2005 06:51 am (UTC) (Link)
I watched America’s Next Top Model for the first time this week. It was the finale show(guessing from last season). I really don't have time to watch television and that sucks.(especially since the new season of Desperate Housewives has kicked off. *sobs*)

discreet_chaos From: discreet_chaos Date: October 10th, 2005 08:36 am (UTC) (Link)
Desperate Housewives needs to get toward where they're going, because tonight was something like the third episode of the new season and I found myself not knowing why I cared.
ubermunkey From: ubermunkey Date: October 11th, 2005 12:56 am (UTC) (Link)
sometimes it is good to feel gay!

great stuff as always

Mike and I still actually have Thursday night set aside for Alia and Top Model via cox digital recording. Ms. Tyra and that LINE! Not this past week, but the one before that she almost killed me with a run on line about, "the girl whose name I do not call, will be the girl who was not called, and will immediately pack her ...." sorry but your post made me think of that and bust out laughing!

Be well
twillhead From: twillhead Date: October 15th, 2005 01:06 am (UTC) (Link)
Call me.
From: booddhabear Date: November 30th, 2005 11:02 am (UTC) (Link)
I overheard you mentioning your LJ name tonight at TV and thought I'd say hello. Nice meeting you these past couple times. Hope you're well, Boo. :)
guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: November 30th, 2005 05:12 pm (UTC) (Link)
Hey Boo. I didn't know you were on here, too. ANTM and LJ seem a common thread of the group, no?

It was cool seeing you last night, and you are SO added as a friend. Hope to see you soon.
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