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Back to Chicago
One of the stars of an upcoming show for one of our networks is a nasty piece of England whose career has stuttered along until we found him, and developed a show around him. He trapped me on the phone on Friday, whining about how it was his idea, his show, and that everyone seemed to be in a conspiracy to thwart his genius. What I didn’t tell him that his Britfeminate voice and his frivolity had just made me fuck up my transaction on Orbitz as I was trying to book an emergency flight back home to Chicago to see my dad.

My father had surgery last Tuesday, his third in as many months. Shelia, his girlfriend or companion or whatever you call a woman thirty-five years his junior, had called me the day after the surgery. I’ve never met Shelia, but in the past few months, we’ve bonded over our mutual concern. She whispered, odd since she was at home by herself except for her three-year old daughter, that my dad was not doing well at all.

“I never seen him like this.” Shelia is black, her accent obvious. It has stoked my dad’s sense of humor as when he told me right before the latest surgery, “I told Shelia to call you afterward, and I told her to try and talk so you could understand her.” He laughed. I rolled my eyes.

“Don’t tell him I told you this but he said the other night he just wants to give up.” Her voice almost broke. Almost. A former member of the Optimist’s Club would never ever think of saying those words.

“I’m coming home.”

“No,” she started, but then slowly said, “I think he’d like that.” She promised to give me any updates. I told her I’d be there as soon as possible. I checked my schedule. There were meetings and deadlines I couldn’t miss. After some airline searches, I went on to Orbitz, and then the Britch called.

I gritted out some empty words of encouragement, talking him off his homemade ledge, and got him off his phone. Around half past eight that evening, I called my dad. His voice was barely audible when he apologized that he couldn’t talk long.

“Good. Then just listen, dad.” I swore to myself I wouldn’t, but I started to cry. “I can’t afford to lose you. I lost Billy and I can’t lose you.”

“Listen, Ter, I promise you, you won’t. I promise you.”

“I’m coming out—“

“You don’t have to do that.”

“I want to, dad.”

“Okay. Well, it will be good to see you.”

“It’ll be good to see you, too.”

“I love you, Ter.”

“I love you, too, dad,” I said, although I’m not sure he heard it. I could hear the phone shuffling toward its cradle as the words came out, just before the click. I sat there and cried. Looking over at Billy’s folded flag, I wondered if it soon would have a companion.
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gotu From: gotu Date: March 28th, 2005 08:25 pm (UTC) (Link)
Good luck. My thoughts are with you.
guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: March 29th, 2005 04:31 am (UTC) (Link)
I love your icon. And thank you.
grrtigger From: grrtigger Date: March 28th, 2005 08:51 pm (UTC) (Link)

*moral support*

I hope you and your dad are able to spend some good time together while you're there, and that things turn out okay with your dad and his recovery. I'll be thinking about you this week.
guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: March 29th, 2005 04:27 am (UTC) (Link)

Re: *moral support*

Thank you, Dave. I think he'll be okay if he bucks up.
From: fuck_isms Date: March 28th, 2005 09:36 pm (UTC) (Link)
Good luck with your father, I think it's a good idea to give him a visit.

I'm kind of going through exactly the same thing right now...my cousin (13) is hospitalized right now. She took some medicine for cramps that she is having a reaction to and she's in and out of consciousness. When her mother saw she was sick, she gave her more of the same medicine.

Her mother is a nurse, and has abused her before, so me and my grandma are both wondering if she intentionally did this to her. My grandma wanted to fly out to North Carolina but my uncle urged her not to (money is real tight, too).

I didn't know you were from Chicago, where at? (I reviewed your journal under another name but this is my new journal, I'm about to update...)
guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: March 29th, 2005 04:20 am (UTC) (Link)
If your aunt did poison her, I hope you cousin finds safe harbor.

I'm from Oak Park. I'm really looking forward to seeing my dad. It's been far too long.

I clicked onto fuck_isms, but I didn't see any there there, so I didn't friend you back. Now I did.

Thanks for the good wishes.
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guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: March 29th, 2005 04:21 am (UTC) (Link)
Thanks, K.!
spigotmd From: spigotmd Date: March 28th, 2005 11:02 pm (UTC) (Link)
Enjoy spending time with your father, your in my thoughts
guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: March 29th, 2005 04:30 am (UTC) (Link)
I'll have a good time with my dad. He's a lot like Billy. Funny, that.
thekingoftoday From: thekingoftoday Date: March 28th, 2005 11:04 pm (UTC) (Link)

That's about all I got.
guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: March 29th, 2005 04:22 am (UTC) (Link)
'Nuff said.
spleenless From: spleenless Date: March 28th, 2005 11:13 pm (UTC) (Link)
Godspeed sweetheart. Take care of yourself, hug your dad.
guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: March 29th, 2005 04:23 am (UTC) (Link)
He's not a huggy type, but I think this time I'll have the upper hand on who hugs who. Joe will keep you posted. He better!
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guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: March 29th, 2005 04:29 am (UTC) (Link)
I'm going to bring him a bunch of books on tape, and catch up. We have a lot of that to do.

Thank you for your good wishes.
jawnbc From: jawnbc Date: March 29th, 2005 01:15 am (UTC) (Link)
Boy I know this one well. Go!
guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: March 29th, 2005 04:24 am (UTC) (Link)
Eek! I'm afraid, but excited to see my dad.
From: (Anonymous) Date: March 29th, 2005 01:24 am (UTC) (Link)
Oh, sweetie, you have quite a lot on your plate right now, don't you? I am sending you hugs and wishes for a speedy recovery for your daddy. Y'all are in my thoughts.

terrilynn (http://seaandsky.typepad.com)
guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: March 29th, 2005 04:25 am (UTC) (Link)
I think he can pull out of this with his usually positive attitude. I just have to go give him a nudge.

Thank you, Terrilynn, for keeping tabs on me. How's L.?
ruralrob From: ruralrob Date: March 29th, 2005 02:28 am (UTC) (Link)
***major hugs***
thafuzz From: thafuzz Date: March 29th, 2005 04:37 am (UTC) (Link)
tedwords From: tedwords Date: March 29th, 2005 05:24 am (UTC) (Link)
I'm hoping that flag rests alone for a bit longer.

Hey, I'm really sorry to hear about this, although I know it's been coming. If there's anything I can do...
quuf From: quuf Date: March 29th, 2005 05:29 am (UTC) (Link)
You're a good man and a good son. Teeth must be clenched.

And sometimes ground to a pulp. A sample from my weekend:

Dad: What's that lump on your wrist?
Me: It's called a ganglion cyst, Dad.
Dad: It's what? Gangrenous?!
Me: No. It's called a ganglion cyst. It's perfectly harmless.
Dad: You should get it removed. It's unsightly.
Me: Thanks, Dad.

All the best to yours, T. And to you.
cricketshay From: cricketshay Date: March 29th, 2005 07:32 am (UTC) (Link)
Oh Terry, I'm so sorry his health is going down hill. I didn't know he had another surgery. I'll say a few prayers for him and for you as well. If you ever did a shoulder to cry on or someone to listen, I'm here. I know it would kill you to lose your dad. Stay strong and hang in there. *great big giant hugs*
From: pit6steve Date: March 29th, 2005 01:20 pm (UTC) (Link)
My thoughts and prayers go out to both you and your dad. Be safe Terry!!!
backawayslowly From: backawayslowly Date: March 29th, 2005 04:45 pm (UTC) (Link)
keep us posted.
backawayslowly From: backawayslowly Date: March 29th, 2005 04:45 pm (UTC) (Link)
keep us posted.
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