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Therapy and Dinner - Sing With Me If It's Just For Today...
If I should fall behind, Guyster, wait for me.
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Therapy and Dinner
I had therapy today. He went into suicide crisis mode which isn't really appropriate but I appreciated the sentiment. Then he said that he has rarely met someone as strong as I am and that something good will come my way and it is time to focus. All good ideas. Gee, where have I heard them before? Then I had dinner with Scott who said the same things.

OK I get it. I'm not gonna commit suicide. I gave Billy a vow plus there's Bob and all my friends who would really hate it if I did. I get it. I hope there's another job around the corner but I am less than optimistic. I put out a lot of feelers today and was told that the job market is bad now. Duh.

The fact is I already lost the only thing that really mattered to me. Billy. After that, losing something else like a job or my keys or whatever pales in comparison. Bob and the house. Those are the things I have left that I cannot afford to lose. I will find another gig. I know. I've worked in a volitile business for way too long to really worry. It's just the notion of losing something else that strikes a tender chord.

Yeah, I'm strong. Stronger by the day. BFD.

Current Mood: cynical cynical
Current Music: silence

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jdjdjd From: jdjdjd Date: November 16th, 2002 03:51 pm (UTC) (Link)
"Yeah, I'm strong. Stronger by the day. BFD."

Isn't it funny how you can know this about yourself and it doesn't make one bit of difference? Wouldn't it be nice to not have to f'n BE strong all the time? Well at least you know you can get through whatever you have to. Take care of yourself.
Jd
guysterrules From: guysterrules Date: November 16th, 2002 09:38 pm (UTC) (Link)
Hey JD, thanks and yeah, you're right. Can we just breathe a little easy for ONCE!!! In saying that, I know that isn't even true because I have had many, many times in my life that was a breeze. I remember them. I just long for a sigh of relief sometime soon. Take care of yourself too and thanks for writing : )
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