I just joined up LJ and already have gotten some amazing support. One of my oldest and best friends, Marc (explosivo), turned me onto this community.
My nightly routine is to light a candle by Billy's flag (he had full military honors at his funeral), say a prayer, write a letter to him in his journal and then, finally, speak to this one picture I have where his eyes are bright and his smile even brighter. I say good night and tell him that I love him.
Then I get Bob, our dog, in a spoon position and watch TV until merciful sleep takes over.